委屈

其实我真的不知道为什么从来没有人能够从我的方面去思考的呢？

为什么没有一个人能够充分的了解我吗？

也许是自己不喜欢把底牌掀开于人前吧

我不把自己难题告诉别人

所以在别人眼中我是没有什么问题

我的难言之隐有谁懂？是没有任何一个人

不管和我多么熟的亲人与朋友，一个都没有

为何我会觉得如此的委屈呢？

为何我需要去说谎？

为何我要用说谎来麻木自己？

为何没有人知道我的用意呢？

为何总被人埋怨呢？

为何我需要对人如此的妥协呢？

为何我不能坚决的说不呢？

为何我的不在别人眼中就是一份自私的举动？

为和？？？？？

其实我觉得他说的话是对的

我不会把一切分得清清楚楚

总是爱拖泥带水的我就是一个很严重的致命伤

也许关系不应该那么的密切

人与人之间应该保持一定的距离

才不会牵涉到人情债在你们眼里

我就是一个自私的人，但我想说的

当你觉得一个人是自私时，有没有想到你自己本身也是一个自私的人呢？

因为当你要判决一个人是自私时，你会用你自己的想法

那时你也是以自己的出发点去决定对于否

当你判定时，你本身自私的特质就会先露无疑

因为你有问过当事人真正的情况吗？

那有谁是公平的呢......???

The feeling of being rejected are totally bad..dam tired with this job
2day working at Tesco Kepong..
dam tired and i felt myself was totally exhausted today.
stand for the whole day with 16 achievement
and the refuse rate are thousand times more than the achievement
some of them will give a good smile while reject
and this still will make my feel better
but many of them with a Black face and keep on mention that they very busy
and some still ask us stay away from them
it really make me feel frustrated
i get almost 70 quota 2day..n we need to settle it by 4days
i dont think i can finish it in case of i still need to rush back to work on 7.30...
i need to achieve 9piece at 2hours
do u think it is possible?
erm....it really challenging
but if i never get reject...i can sure i will settle it on timeee~
god bless me lah....i wan finish it...i don't want to give any trouble for others people..
for bearing my Quota

11 AuGUSt 2010

Just listen on the music...it make me so comfortable

i get this song from a friend blog...

when the 1st time i listen to it...i had fall to it..

if u ask me why sure i could not explain to u

hence,i put it on my blog and share with u guy

the name of the music was KISS THE RAIN

when the moment i listen to this song...my mind recall back a lots of memory 

there are some with sadness but also some with sweet

those memory bearing as the witness of  time passed

when look backward, time really passed by just a blink of eye..

the life of childhood became a record in my mind that i would not forget

and wish to have second time in my life

this sort of life are very simple and naive

i don't have much pressure and any defiance

it's just a briefness life

yet, i could not catch back this kind of life..

perhaps older and older

problems become more and more..

and the lesson for me to learn now is how to handle it

i wish i got a brightening future

and i will try harder and harder to achieve my dreams

i will prove to myself

because i will be the eternal enemies

朋友的心声

这篇是我在我的死党的部落格里抄会来的

我觉得很有用意思

言语的描述

反映着你内心深处的心声

双眸也许能轻轻地闭上

但凌乱的思绪却难以安抚

紧绷的心跳依然耀跃拨动

沉重的灵魂狠狠压迫于肩

呼着零吸着碎的微薄空气

闭上憔悴的双眸...
平静凌乱的思绪....
安定紧绷的心跳...
解脱沉重的灵魂...
窒息接着深呼吸...
潜入心灵最深处...
发掘隐藏的心语...

8月8号...
今天恍然发现...
原来我早已把门关上...
原来我把心门上了锁...
钥匙埋葬于心底某处...

是我找不到心灵钥匙?
抑或我刻意把钥匙藏了起来?
是我被心门反锁在内?
抑或我刻意把心门关了起来?

也许适当的把钥匙隐藏起来， 可以避免受伤害...
但试问有多少人可以将这把钥匙掌控自如的运用?

上了锁的心门， 我不想打开...
藏于心的钥匙， 我不想找到...
自从那天以后， 我只想沉默...

或许最原始的我早已随钥匙双双被埋葬于心深处的某个角落...
我选择把心中的那扇门关上...

KANAsai

i do think that i had give myself a huge burden for myself..
and that will be the reason for me when my emotion had been influenced
i know my personality very well, i'm a person who kiasu..
i cannot accept myself weaken than others and i not willing to be the last
therefore i tried my best to catch up others footstep
i will try 2 chase back if i stay behind of someone
may be that is the motivation for me to continue with working while i m studying now
it's very tiring and sometime i cant even can sleep well
i feel vexed and stress
a big rock was hanging on my shoulder....
i m looking a method to release such pressure...

i m so tired..